I’m very close to finishing this whole journey called studying to be an English teacher. When I look back, I remember my first years in this career which were not bad. However, they have been quite difficult regarding my learning in this foreign language. Because of this, I realized that I’m a very slow learner, and maybe it’s because I still don’t feel very motivated or I’m just a disorganized person. Many of the goals haven’t been well achieved, which has caused me self-esteem problems. But this never stopped me from being pessimistic about my future, on the contrary, I always wanted to keep improving even if it wasn’t what I expected. So now being in 4th year gave me a lot of knowledge but also mixed emotions.

Talking about now, I must say that this semester didn’t go as well as I expected (sadly again). Academically speaking, I haven’t had good results in my evaluations, which has caused me health problems such as anxiety (never happened to me before) and depression. Because of this, I realized that in my English classes I’m not able to look at my teachers just because I feel ashamed of my small progress, and that’s not good, it only makes my mood worse. When I wrote my challenges and goals for this semester I still didn’t have tests, so now I feel that maybe everything I wanted to say was far from being fulfilled.

It has been difficult for me to maintain a positive attitude regarding everything that I’ve been through, however, I’m grateful to have my friends who are always there to help me and be supportive when I need it. Even though I haven’t done well with my grades, my classmates have always been very friendly to me. In addition, I feel that as a course we’ve become closer, this was thanks to the fact that we are now in face-to-face classes. This is something that I can highlight from this semester.

Speaking of my practicum, I must say that I had a very good experience. Both my students and teachers were very kind to me. Thanks to that school, I was able to participate in many activities, one of them was acting for the student’s day. I had to dress up and act like a Disney character and dance. The best thing about that day was that I could see many of my students very happy to see me doing that. Many of them were always very sweet and they also really liked how I did the classes, for which I’m very grateful to them. In addition, many gave me drawings and cookies.

Although this semester didn’t go as I expected academically speaking, I had very good support from my friends. In addition, my experience at the school where I did my practicum made me realize that I can be a good teacher in the future. So I hope I can finish this year no matter what.

It is a fact that I actually improved in some skills such as listening, writing and speaking compared to last year, however, it’s still not enough to have a good result in the CAE exam.